Doom & Gloom

Today has been one of those days that you do not want to relive.  It all started this morning with fighting with the insurance company over their non payment for a mammogram that I had last month.  When you have had a biopsy in the past, a mammo is one procedure that brings peace of mind.  They paid to have the mammo read, but not the actual taking of it.  What a screwed up mess our insurance system has become.  Now these men on the medical board are saying that a woman does not need to have this procedure done. 

LET THEM  BE CALLED AT WORK WITH THE NEWS THAT SOMETHING WAS ABNORMAL WITH YOUR LAST MAMMO AND WE NEED TO SCHEDULE YOU ASAP FOR A BIOPSY.  WE ARE SCHEDULING YOU FOR FRIDAY MORNING (the call came on a Tuesday).  THEY WOULD THINK TWICE ABOUT THEIR FABULOUS DECISION REGARDING MAMMOS FOR WOMEN.

Next came the news that the organizer for a particular event is someone that I have had words with in the past and in order to get into this "fabulous" event I have to go though this person.  I would honestly rather be beat with a stick that has nails poking out rather than talk to this person.  I disliked the way that I was treated the last time we spoke and the lies that he told.  My kind and good husband tried to call him, but could not reach him.  Now that leaves me to having to talk with him.  I have made myself sick just thinking about hearing his voice again.

Needless to say my emotions are at their tenderest and tears have flowed unrelentlessly today.  To top everything else off I received an email and that was the last straw and now I can't stop crying.  What a crappy day this has been and I can hardly wait to go to bed and hopefully tomorrow will be better.  If it starts out like today, I will turn over, pull the covers over my head and not get up all day long.

I don't dare take my blood pressure as I know it is already off the charts and rising as the day continues.  Wish me well that tomorrow starts out good, continues to be good and ends good.